First: I want to say that I make no claims to be an expert on Spiritual things or the Gospel of Jesus Christ. I'm simply sharing my experience of healing through the Atonement of Jesus Christ, and what I did to accomplish that healing.


3 Ways I have found healing

through the Atonement

  1. Forgiveness

  2. Physical Healing

  3. Emotional Healing

Forgiveness

I experienced an immediate forgiveness from my Savior the moment I turned to Him and asked for it. He was not angry with me. He was not requiring anything from me as "penance". Christ forgives freely and openly when we admit our faults and turn to Him for help. When I did things contrary to the Lord's commandments, and broke covenants I made with Him, the natural consequence was that I lost my spiritual connection to Him. In a sense, I had turned away from Him. Then I got angry with Him when I couldn't see Him in front of me or feel Him in my life anymore. When I found the humility to admit my mistakes, made changes to correct them, and did the things I know reconnect me to Heavenly Father and my Savior, I found They were still there, They always had been, and were happy to help!


My process of finding Forgiveness through the Atonement was not over, however. I still needed to learn to forgive myself, and forgive others (even when they had not apologized). Forgiving myself was not easy at first. When I felt the immediate forgiveness of my Savior, part of me was like, "Wait, that's it?!" and I felt like I had "gotten off easy"! I wanted to punish myself more for what I had done than what God was requiring of me. I found help in forgiving myself through a principle called "Self Compassion" as presented by a brilliant woman, Kristin Kneff. She doesn't talk about God in her speech. This is simply something we need to do as humans to help ourselves. Hanging on to resentment for the way others treated me only held me back from finding the peace I wanted. The Atonement provided Christ's lasting peace the moment I let go of the anger and pain that I had been holding onto for so long. Part of me wanted to "keep track" of everyone who had wronged me so I could tell God on Judgement Day what happened. However, I realized that I was being a hypocrite if I didn't forgive them when I knew I needed forgiveness too. When it came to the pain from an early childhood trauma, I realized I was holding onto it because I was afraid I would allow it to happen again if I didn't constantly hold on the memory and pain as a reminder. When I discovered it was holding me back from living in peace instead of protecting me, I realized I could let go of it and have faith that I would be happier without it. This was not a quick process, but the more I trusted in the Lord, the more peace I found. Fear can be a powerful barrier to growth. I learned that fear comes from dark influences and recognizing that gave me courage to trust the light and leave the fear behind.


Physical Healing

I will only share a brief description of my physical healing experience because I feel it is a sacred thing that I do not want open to mockery by unbelievers. I had been in a bad place mentally and emotionally a few years ago. I had a headache most of the time. I was not acting like myself. I was not treating others the way I would if I were myself. When I went to the Dr, they told me I had Anxiety and Depression and gave me meds accordingly. The meds made things worse and I felt helpless. I asked my husband to give me a Priesthood Blessing and during the blessing I felt something in the front section of my brain leave, like pressure had been relieved and the pain was gone. I know that it was the power of God that healed whatever was in my head because it was a tangible feeling I will always remember.


Emotional Healing

I believe now that the Lord had a wise plan in mind for me by waiting to heal me emotionally as the final step in my healing process. Before it happened, however, I was frustrated because I couldn't understand why He would heal me in other ways and not emotionally, especially when I had been asking for the emotional healing the longest. I had been to therapy at different points in my life seeking help and healing but it was not successful. I had basically accepted that the Lord didn't want to heal me for some reason. (I know now this was not true, but it is how I felt at the time). I was angry and wanted to stay angry and resentful towards God. Then a part of me thought, "Maybe I need to learn something from this before I can be healed." So I made a choice to set aside my anger and resentment toward the Lord and try to reconnect with Him to find out what it is He wanted me to learn. I did very specific things to show my faith and trust in my Savior:

  1. I read scriptures consistently (I followed the Church's "Come Follow Me" curriculum).

  2. I prayed about and pondered questions I had, and the questions within the Come Follow Me guide.

  3. I wrote down all my thoughts, impressions, and personal revelation I received through the Spirit in a journal.

I did this for over a year before I received the prompting from the Spirit to seek therapy again. I felt the promise that this time would be different. From the beginning of my therapy things were different because we tried a new modality called EMDR. This allowed me to access my traumas in an non-invasive way. After a few sessions, we approached the oldest trauma that was affecting me the most. As I went through the motions of EMDR therapy I saw an image in my mind of my heart being stitched up. I would take a moment to check in with my therapist about what I was noticing and feeling, then I would get back to work stitching up my heart again. I finally reached a point where the work was not done but I was unable to finish on my own. Part of me felt discouraged and I asked myself, do I have enough faith to be healed all the way? What else am I missing? My response came in the form of me pleading to my Savior for help. I told Him, "I believe, please help my unbelief" (yes, I felt very much like the father who plead with Christ to heal his daughter in the Bible). After this I felt a strong loving presence on my left side - when I opened my eyes, I couldn't see Him, but when I closed my eyes again I could definitely feel Him there. He said to me in my mind, "Alright, Jenny, let's do this!" Tears of gratitude streamed down my face as I watched in my mind, Him helping me to stitch up the rest of my heart. He helped me turn it over again and again, making sure we got all the little tears I missed before. Although I was grateful, I was also confused and I asked Him, "Why now? After so many years of me asking you for help to heal my heart, why now?" His answer was simple, "Because you've done the work". I realized then that my journey over the past year of reconnecting to my Heavenly Father, and my Savior through prayer and scripture study had helped me let go of the destructive things (like anger and resentment) that would constantly tear up my heart again if He had healed me before. I needed to be ready for complete healing. I learned then that the Savior WILL heal any and all of us when the time is right, and when we are ready.


Love,




Jenny Kopp



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Updated: Nov 20, 2020



As I was painting Christ, I wanted to look into His eyes, but I hesitated because that meant He would see me too. I didn't want Him to see my flaws and mistakes when I looked at Him. I have always thought I would overcome my mistakes and present a pure soul to God after this life. However, I was wrong in thinking I could hide anything from Him, for it is Christ who suffered for those mistakes and He knows every intimate detail. Then the thought occurred to me that I caused part of His suffering in Gethsemane and my heart dropped. Could I ever look Him in the face? With great sorrow and humility, I decided to lay my heart and soul before Him because I desired to change and make right the wrongs I had done in my life. As I prayed to see my Savior's face, and as I turned to Him, I saw eyes that looked into the depths of my soul that were full of love and understanding. There was no anger, and no resentment for the pain I caused. He saw every part of me and He loved me anyway. Forgiveness came immediately. The process of healing began, but it was not over instantly. Each day I turned to Him for help I could feel my Savior working to heal a part of me. I learned that He takes His time and makes sure there are no pieces left undone/unhealed. This is how He makes us complete again. Although I have already experienced great forgiveness and healing, I am still going through this process. Maybe the process never ends in this life. I know now, though, that whenever I am ready to turn to my Savior for help, He is ready to greet me with the face and eyes of love I saw when I painted Him. He is always there, I just need to make the choice to turn to Him.


About the Details:

The reflection of the Apostle’s boats in the Savior's eyes comes from Him seeing each of us as “Fishers of Man” as we “Gather Israel”. When He looks at us, He sees disciples with unlimited potential. The dark circles around His eyes show the toll each of our trials and mistakes have had on Him, as He has gone through each of them with us. He is tired- but never tires of helping us, or being there for us. He is the “Living Water” for all man, yet His lips are dry. After giving all of himself, He waits with parched lips, hoping for us to share the nourishment He is, for the body and soul, with others. “Inasmuch as ye have done it unto one of the least of these my brethren, ye have done it unto me.” (Matthew 25:40) The tears in His eyes are tears of joy for us who chose to turn to Him. We may be tired. We may feel beaten down. The example that Christ gives to all of us, is to love and serve others anyway; stand by everyone in their times of need; cheer one another on and support each other in order to triumph over trials. It is my hope to be the light, the love, and the disciple that our Savior sees.


with Love,




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*These paintings were made with oil paint and venetian plaster on wood panels.

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With COVID-19 sweeping the world there are many people staying home (whether it is to self-quarantine or because we are following the guidelines by local government authorities). If you happen to be bored or need something other than electronics to keep the kids occupied I am sharing free coloring pages with you to print - and make as many copies as you want! I can't take credit for the idea because it was a dear friend, Jodilynn Blake who first did this. You can download her free coloring pages on her website: www.jodilyncreates.com . Thank you, Jodilynn, for being a great example of having an open heart to give and share!


The Squirrel waving hello is to remind us to be friendly during this time of crisis.

The Lamb and Lion is to remind us that peace will come.

The eagle is because.... well, 'Merica!


I loved the idea of giving something during a time when so many are scrambling to take what they can from the store shelves. I hope this little gift helps. ~Love, Jen


P.S. You will need a Dropbox account to print these, but don't worry - it's free too :)






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